Usually when we hear the word abuse, we think of brutality, rape, spanking, violence, torture, force and perversion. But that is only the tip of the iceberg. Depp down there are many souls hidden that have experienced something different. The experienced an abuse that is equally horrible as strains the victims’ psyches far beyond the endurable – an abuse that hardly anyone talks about. Because the children do not feel any pain they often fail to realize that they are being harmed. In her autobiography the author describes the experiences of her childhood and the dramatic consequences that ensued. The first time the nice uncle from next door uses Sandra’s early sexual curiosity to satisfy his own desires, she is four years old. Because she has pleasant sensations and is not feeling pain, Sandra does not realize that what she is made to do is bad. Again and again older teenagers acquaint the child with sexuality, and she does not tell for fear of punishment. When during puberty she realizes what happened in her childhood, she is ashamed and judges herself. As an adult she stumbles from one relationship to the next without ever being truly satisfied. Read about the physical and mental agonies Sandra has to go through before finally realizing that they originate in her childhood. Is it too late now, or can she free herself from her past and her feelings of guilt?
